I shall sum out a little of my love and life~ just saying, recording purpose.
No names shall be mentioned though. (it will be a little emo-ish, don't say I didn't give my warning, readers)

Primary school, happiest life of all
Met this boy in primary 3
He was my classmate, my first little love.
My friends like him too, little handsome.
I liked him because he was a little gentleman with good sense of humour
He can make people happy with his enticing smile.
I was a little nerd girl, but I guessed he chose me as a little lovey dovey too
We shared little jokes, sent each other little love letters of our lives.
This lasted from P3 to P6.
P3, I was the same classs as him
P4, I was the same chinese class as him
P5 & P6, we were in the same class again
However, during P4, I started to become a little jealous because I took his friendliness as flirting.
So during P5 & P6, we barely talked.
During PSLE, I wished I was the same secondary school as him.
But, to the second thought, I think.. better not..
I knew he watched some adult films, so I was somewhat disgusted by his acts then.
I guess, that was when he went astray, started smoking and drinking and stuff.

Secondary school, still okay I guess
The beginning was ups and downs.
The beginning of it was the darkest moments of my school life.
I was backstabbed, hurted.
I guess I do have some stuffs I did wrong, but I was deeply hurted that I crawled into my comfort zone.
It was when frankies sisters came along.
Slowly, as time past, I came out of the darkness and came into light.
We went home together, studied together and played together.
But, dark cloud came in again, and this time, 3 of us were involved..
Gossips all around, bitching and stuff.
The type of feeling, I would never forget.
Somehow through the 3 years we managed to pass.
One of us did not made it..
She was all alone, and I looked at her in despair.
I don't know how to help, other than giving comforting words.
I know she's down, I know, because it was the feeling of lost.
Overtime, she became stronger, though I can still feel sadness from her.
She had her own aim, but yet avoided us for a period of time.
Till today, I guess she was trying to hide her feeling of lost and despair.
It must have hurted alot..

Slowly, ending secondary school taking our O level results.
My results went downhil, was not as expected.
I cried and cried and cried.
But, I was lucky to have my frankies sister around.
Also not forgetting my sister who gave the most comforting word from her own experience.
I guess that was a new turning point God gave me.

However, I'm still struggling with life.
I forgot what is happiness.
Pressures, stress, influences, competition everywhere, not forgetting in poly life.
I'm still stucked, oh Lord Jesus.

Please, release me, someone?

Hi Earthlings.
I came back to look at this blog, expected, it's dead!
No more chatbox, songs, posts...
Tumblr is interesting, but somewhat a little annoying as well..
Perhaps, I should make a new blog? (:
And let this blog be here, with all the memories inside. :3
I really missed the past, especially during the lower secondary schol days.
Life now is tough, everyone have their own stuffs to do, be it homework or their another half..
So far, I don't have a relationship yet, still relationship virgin. x;
Hahaha!
Somewhat over these years, I also lost my sense of humour..
I tried hard to laugh naturally, but somewhat and somehow it became difficult..
Perhaps this is the impact of people who have hurted me, and people I have not been in-touch with..
Especially my dear frank JH and SH. )':
I really miss them.

As of how I understand life in SG, I know education is important, money is important.
No $ = No talk
People are most likely to lose their happiness like this.
It's so competitive, dealing with different foreign talents and stuff..
I guess partly the reason why the low birth rate is because of foreign talents.
They said they are trying to keep out with the economy and stuff.. I just think thats BS.
I'm sorry to say that, but that's my personal opinion.
No offence to the foreigners though, as long as they said so.
We are made as mechanisms to generate money, which shouldn't be an essential to life.
I would have been just happy with food, a roof on top of me, and proper clothing to wear.
Sometimes I wonder.
I want peace, fresh air and happiness.

Talking about polytechnic life... well.. so far I'm still surviving.
Not as fun as it seems.
Joining a cca makes it more fun, but the process... with little support of selfies..
Sustaining an award.. it's tough.
People come and go, no fixed friend and member..

Alright, I may sound pessimistic, but how can you not be in SG?
I want to go somewhere far, or immigrate somewhere better and easy to live in.